It seems to take quite a bit of effort to do many things.  Sitting down to write a blog post, to take the time to prepare healthy foods, to keep my house clear.  All of these things take time.  I have heard that it takes 21 days to create a habit.  I have been at this for 4 days and I can continue on! 

I realize that I eat mostly out of habit.  Like for whatever reason, if there is a slow down in my time of any sort, I turn to food.  So I understand the whole "emotional eating" phrase and habit.  However, I have come to see that for me, it is even more than just where an emotion is high.  I might be excited or running late or getting ready to nap, and I just grab a snack in all of these times.  Not always an emotional trigger it what I am saying. 

Drinking soda is a habit for me.  I have decided that I do much better drinking my water if i mix up my schedule and don't stop for a 44 oz soda mid-morning.  The water seems much more appealing.  So I have implemented this for the past 2 weeks or so, I it is amazing to me how much easier it is to keep water in my system. 

So superbowl weekend was interesting for me.  Both friday night and all day Saturday I was wanting french fried.  I tried to figure out why, and still have not.  The only thing that keeps going thru my head at this point is that if you keep thinking about them, just go have some.  That is what I had for lunch.  It was not as great as I thought it was. 

As I read the book intuitive eating, I realize that I have some messed up perceptions of food and need to get some of them worked out.  It might require a few weeks of eating whatever I want.  But that in itself brings up a lot of fear about gaining 20 lbs in the process.  What should I do?  I guess it is time to go pray and let the spirit guide my decisions. 

Thanks to a classmate Amy for teaching me about self deception in following the spirit.  I am on a quest to really follow the spirit and to pray for the help that I need personally to overcome this affair with food. 

Still working and pluggin through!
Love to you all
Tracy